platypus&seahorse

early this morning i had a pretty amazing dream.
i am going to write it down on here so as to not forget it.
well, i was at the beach in a tide pool i spose, when off in the distance i spied something in the water. upon retreiving said something, i discovered that it was a baby platypus, small enough to fit in the palm of my hand. he opened his tiny bill and yawned. then i let him go. next, i discovered a baby seahorse, all curled up. he stretched out in my hand, then i let him go too. after this, i woke up.
this was, perhaps, the cutest dream i have ever dreamed.
i hope i have more!

love must be sincere.

what a pleasant week I have had. God is faithful! College is such a diverse place for me to reflect His love back on others. Today, my heart is at peace. with everything
it`s only 10:18 in the evening, but i am sleepy.
it is friday, and i have been a good steward of it. i truly believe that Jesus smiles on us as we drift off to sleep.
let your gentleness be evident to all, dear ones. pursue Him relentlessly, with every fiber of your being.
breathe in and be still

should we go outside?

my clavicles hurt.
God is love.
i have been listening to waterdeep and the weakerthans alot as of late. this happens to be one of my favorite lyrics: "in love with love and lousy poetry."
and also,
"i want to take every empty jar, fill it up with the soil and sea..."
i started reading a book about Haiti today. it hurts my heart, but that is good.
i miss people.
i would like to visit tampa very much.
elise sent me some verses yesterday. they lifted my spirits.
brick is getting married tomorrow.
(:

it`s so nice to be alive in such a wonderful year

turn your face to the wind.
cross your eyes and dry your tears.
You brought hope and a home.
to those of us who had none.
none had.
i`m so glad You came.
it`s been raining all day.
but i am satisfied with You.
&with You here now.

and what about you, salome?

"And when the sabbath was past, Mary Magdalene, and Mary the mother of James, and Salome, had bought sweet spices, that they might come and anoint Him." mark 16:1

happy easter, salome.

He came so mary, mary, and salome could have life and have it abundantly. He came so that we could be free. i`m free!

Hallelujah! He reigns!

Compassion, by Henri M. Nouwen
this book is changing me.

"Simply being with someone is difficult because it asks of us that we share in the other`s vulnerability, enter with him or her into the experience of weakness and powerlessness, become part of uncertainty, and give up control and self-determination. And still, whenever this happens, new strength and new hope is being born."

&also,

"When we take a critical look at ourselves, we have to recognize that competition, not compassion, is our main motivation in life. This all-pervasive competition, which reaches into the smallest corners of our relationships, prevents us from entering into full solidarity with each other, and stands in the way of our being compassionate. Being compassionate would require giving up dividing lines and relinquishing differences and distinctions. A divine compassion is a compassion without the slightest tinge of competition."

nina blessed me in a letter. (:

do you have a story to tell? [i`ll listen]

is He not enough for me? are You not enough, my sweet Jesus?
who am i. who am i. who am i. to speak a word of doubt outloud? i am a disgrace to Your name. when You are the one Who has provided me everthing. nay, more than everything i could ever possibly desire. it has already been taken care of.
and yet,
i still doubt. i am not joyful & content. i am restless, and my mind is spilling over with meaningless thoughts. i get distracted and frustrated. the secret, inner desires of my heart are growing cold.
this is my call to life.