Thursday, May 31, 2007

movement three.

1. Chalky fingers.
2. A doe-eyed, matted haired child.
3. Picnic tables.
4. Mamma.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

pt. 2.

1. Easy rain falling.
2. Typewriters.
3. The sweet, wiser women at the circulation desk in the library.
4. Listening to others.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

things to get reaquainted with.

1. Stop taking myself so seriously.
2. Listening to public radio.
3. Children, specifically seven and eight year olds.
4. Joy.

Saturday, May 26, 2007

I just went to a wedding.

I feel off.
The bells rang two hours late.
I knew this boy when we were on the cross-country team together. I rode in their mini-van. We sweated Saturdays and dilapidated rest stops. We were class mates; friends even.
So all I want to know is, who said this was allowed to happen?
& why do I still feel so unprepared?
Have mercy.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

we were kings of the day.

that wasn`t really what i wanted to say at all.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007


Dear Raindrops,
Water fell from the sky today.
After the sprinkling I wanted to stand outside and smell the tinny air. And I thought that perhaps one day I would live in a place that had rainfalls, and I would walk slower and talk less and love people the way they needed to be loved.
And today I am still wandering.
And today it`s o.k. to feel a little aimless; and the next today is allowed to stand on her own.
Today I fell freely.
Today I moved on impulses other than my own.
Today was full of life and not death.
Today was new.

Monday, May 14, 2007

I do not exist.

and ashamed, I whispered, "But Lord, all I have to offer You are these feeble hands and wandering feet and lustful heart and two dirty pocket pigeons."
so He took them.

Tuesday, May 8, 2007

oh, little girl

you`re just a little girl.

Dear Jesus,
I would like to have a sweetheart now.
But You are saying, "not yet."
Will You let me be o.k. with that?

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

I fear that

your presence makes my heart pitter a bit too quickly.
And I have held this caution sign for so long, that perhaps the edges have been worn and dampened.
But if you must handle this cardiovascular muscle of mine, please do so the kindest that you ever have.