Thursday, January 31, 2008


I hear a train moaning in the distance, &I woke up this morning in a sweat, peeled off my soaking tee, &lay quietly under covers too heavy for this weather. "Must`ve sweated out that fever," I thought to myself.
I don`t get sick often. Or at least I don`t admit it when I am.
But today. Today, I am sick. I am easily whelmed over &take every comment personally. I curl up inside of myself and listen to Bon Iver`s For Emma, For Ever Ago. I pretend that I am grown up &will live in an apartment somewhere, and maybe work two jobs, &share meals with a roommate or two. I think that college doesn`t prepare me for what`s next as well as they say it does. I`m finding the beginning of wisdom starts by loving others. I don`t know if it`s worth it quite yet. I`d like to think so. I really would.
"I`m not a fan of danger," she says.
There will be more than just falling a sleep this time.

Friday, January 25, 2008


&the way He looks so tenderly at me through the glass of an imperfect soul!
oh! how my heart aches for the ventricles it has lost!

Sunday, January 20, 2008


i want to hear little baby coughs
&puppies so excited that they puddle on the floor
&wrapping an old ticking clock in a warm blanket
so you feel closer to your mama`s beating heart
and the neighbourhood that is home.
oh, what to do with this curious in-be-tween?

Monday, January 14, 2008

for time i have wasted.

amphibians are croaking outside of my windows.
&you ran to me [really!] in the earlier hours of the day.
it sort of makes me wish i was just at home on rocky shores drive.
it sort of makes me want to walk our dogs down the dusky streets, &take the short cut back.
it sort of makes me want to call a friend &have a solid conversation.
it sort of makes me grate full that i can go to sleep after eight tonight.
it sort of makes me want to grow up.
but then again,
it sort of makes me want to fly.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

my passport came today.

He catches me off guard
&it gets me every time.
turn the knob
push open the wood,
&there it is.
bathing my room in an ethereal glow.

Monday, January 7, 2008


&what does it mean when you spend too much time with one person,
& not enough with a nother,
but you don`t really mind that much at all?

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

pages turning

1. read 52 books, [in addition to the Old Testament].
2. start growing up.