I want to write about how lousy this week has been and how my throat has been so sore that I can barely speak above a whisper and how it was so hot in the apartment last night that I started sweating immediately after my shower, and fuck, I live in the valley now (kind of).
But then I see this quote on someone's Instagram (sorry, I should have read it in a book) and get rearranged AGAIN:
Be like the fox
who makes more tracks than necessary,
some in the wrong direction.
Practice resurrection.
-WB
The 'manifesto' goes on to say some pretty strange things like, every day do something that won’t compute and
Love someone who does not deserve it and Be joyful though you have considered all the facts.
But back to the fox.
Can I be the fox? Am I already the fox? Are we all foxes at some points in life? I like to think so. If you could look at a map of where I've (we've) been I'm sure it would be covered in tracks, probably most in the wrong direction. I guess this doesn't necessarily have to be bad.
Regardless of what you hold most dear, resurrection is typically a rejuvenating thing, right?
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Monday, June 8, 2015
The Unexamined Life
It has been so warm outside today. I walk my dog less than a mile and start to feel the beads of sweat forming on the skin above my heart, absorbed into my cotton shirt before I have a chance to awkwardly shoo them away.
I have noticed almost every piece of trash between Magnolia and Chandler (to my disappointment, so has the dog), the abandoned repair shops, the gigantic self storage warehouse, the Big Lots across the street...today everything is ugly to me.
This is my life. I just started to worry that maybe I am living an unexamined one. I do not want to wander mindlessly down these littered streets and come up empty when I unlock the security gate at the entrance to our modest apartment.
I treated myself to some flowers at the local farmers market yesterday. They're in a glass on our kitchen/work table and, believe me, they are lovely. I'm not going to say that I want to be like the flowers, that I never want to worry about how I look or what I'll wear...but I do want to be lovely.
Most days I take a line from the Princess Diaries, stare at my reflection, think "This is as good as it gets," breathe in a good-natured sigh and pour some grapefruit juice for my early morning commute.
Because, I suppose, "good" can be enough.
For now.
I have noticed almost every piece of trash between Magnolia and Chandler (to my disappointment, so has the dog), the abandoned repair shops, the gigantic self storage warehouse, the Big Lots across the street...today everything is ugly to me.
This is my life. I just started to worry that maybe I am living an unexamined one. I do not want to wander mindlessly down these littered streets and come up empty when I unlock the security gate at the entrance to our modest apartment.
I treated myself to some flowers at the local farmers market yesterday. They're in a glass on our kitchen/work table and, believe me, they are lovely. I'm not going to say that I want to be like the flowers, that I never want to worry about how I look or what I'll wear...but I do want to be lovely.
Most days I take a line from the Princess Diaries, stare at my reflection, think "This is as good as it gets," breathe in a good-natured sigh and pour some grapefruit juice for my early morning commute.
Because, I suppose, "good" can be enough.
For now.
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