I am here to say that I have been pleasantly surprised by the quiet unfolding of events over the past few weeks. I feel lucky/blessed/etc/etc to be in this place, but the truth is I have put in a lot of work and made several fucking hard decisions to get here. And, yes, I was not expecting this "so soon," but I can't deny that something is happening.
For now that is enough to keep me hopeful, to continue getting to know this peculiar person and to be okay with all the not knowings of something new and real and fragile.
It's not the worst place to be, I suppose.