Remember that time I said I wanted to be taken advantage of? Scratch that. I definitely do not want that to happen.
I do still want to be kind and am trying to practice this skill daily. (Things tend to get easier the more you do them, good or bad...take that for what it's worth I suppose.) I also realize that life for me is filled with far fewer wild adventures and many more quiet ones: interacting with humans, being outside, exploring.
Maybe re-learning how to be me is enough this year. Maybe next year I get to re-learn how to be with others. Or maybe not. Maybe I don't have holiday plans for the first time in my life and this is both terrifying and mildly okay. Maybe being okay with the 'unknown' is an awkwardly small step in the direction of a much larger desire to be gracious in the art of letting go.
Whatever that means.